"However difficult life may seem, there is always something you can do and succeed at.
Work gives you meaning and purpose and life is empty without it."
At first I hated programming, during my study I got html/css and PHP, but only for 2 hours a week, one semester. Besides that I had tons of other work to do for different courses. So not really a lot of time to take a seat and patiently absorb the information, or get excited. It became something that had to be done to continue my study. That and a teacher,who was knowledgeable, but not very good at teaching and you have a bad first experience learning to code.
In my third year I had to sadly stop my education due to personal circumstances (which I can tell you more about personally), not because of my grades. Although this happened, I now see that education isn't everything. It's motivation. When I sat at home, I still wanted to do something whth the small amount of energy I had. So strangely enough, I picked up the html and css book. After refreshing my memory, I wanted to dive in deeper. I fiddled around with WordPress,which made me want to learn PHP because I wanted to understand how to build such a thing in PHP myself.
I follow courses on Udemy,as well as some youtube channels. It is amazing that you can now pick your own teachers, and a method
that works for you.
My goal for now is to become a full stack web-developer with a focus on the back-end. I don't think the job of a full stack developer is to know it all out of the back of your head, but to understand it all, to be able to use different tools where needed.
Today you need to use multiple languages for the smallest sites. And to become a multiversed programmer, you have a lot of caching up to do, I was born to late to gradually grow into all the languages and to early to colonize another planet ;-). Of course there are a lot of frameworks which makes things easier, but then you skip the core understanding of the language. So I've been holding back for all these helper for a while to really get the core understanding right so I know whats going on under the hood when I'm going to pick up a framework.